I dated two guys recently. And when I say recent, it's around 3 weeks.

First one very intense dating. Like two days, we went for drives, trips, met his mom, had sex, he kept telling he want to be in relationship with me. And he spoke about marriage and what not.

I think after our second date. He started ghosting me and eventually told me he doesn't want relationship.

^ ideal triggering point for me. I felt abandoned and hurt.

I jumped harder in the dating pools. Again sticked to one guy. Tried to take things super slow. He was a sweetheart but very busy.

It was serious too because he kept telling me how much he likes and he is willing to put efforts and all.

Yesterday, he did the same thing as the first guy. Told he is not looking got relationship. And that we should end it.

Now my mind is spinning. Is it me? Am I too intense?

Is the something I am doing?

Is my bpd making my own self image worse with all these triggers?

I would like to hear some opinions and suggestions. If someone went through this?