I've ignored messages from basically everyone I know and just have been communicating to people I game with, with the exception of one date that went bad. Is it normal for me to feel this way? I keep leaving everyone on read (family, friends, suitors) and I just don't want to be bothered. I just don't have the mental energy for menial conversations or hangouts. I've reverted to my teenage self of being a loner, and honestly I've found it quite pleasant. No worries about abandonment, no stressing about if I've divulged too much information, behaved weird or none of that. Just me, my video games, books and movies/shows.

Any other BPD women feel like this or been in this stage of life? I feel like when I was younger I only pushed myself to be social because I felt that's what I was supposed to be doing, but now at my age of 34 I have this "fuck everyone" attitude and "leave me the fuck alone" mantra going for me.