My super power, like yours, is the ability to put one self in another persons shoes so well that I feel bad for it.

To explain, I have no somatic empathy. When someone tells me their grandma died, I don't FEEL anything physically.

But, for some reason, when I see a new face, my first reaction is to give them the benefit of the doubt, whatever that may be.

If someone is tall, I give them the benefit that everyone thinks they're a comedian and reminds them of it everyday. Same for being short.

If someone is a different race, I remind myself that race is completely irrelevant because no matter what you discern from my post history, I feel guilty for placing myself in a box for race because that means I have to constantly make value judgements based on the physical world, which always leads to something bad.(literally idk but to be honest I simply say i'm mixed when asked)

The only other relevant fact is that I refuse to compromise my core values, which, if you're a united states citizen, is respecting your fundamental right to Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. What I mean by that Is what I love most about my physical reality is that I've never been locked in a cage for longer than appropriate to learn my lesson.

I've been 302d and 303d twice, meaning I spent 10-15 days both times I was involuntarily put in a psych ward.

The last time was bitter because I was no harm to anyone in my view, but the lessons I learned while in their were invaluable.

STOP RIGHT NOW. Please know i'm being genuine and refuse to trigger anyones personal sensibilities, so i'm minding my words VERY VERY carefully. I've been automatically wrong in someones mind before based on a completely valid feeling I triggered, and nothing I could do or say could change their mind after.

Since you've made it this far, be prepared to battle the cognitive dissonace you're about to feel when I say, my entire life everyone has literally outright told me I was the "smartest person they've ever met"(Still cannot tell you in my native tounge what they mean). But because of the physical and emotional abuse and subsequent trauma, I refused to believe anything anyone told me because my single mother, the one who was supposed to build my ability to cope with these feelings, told me from the beginning that I was a liar.

If you ask ANYONE you could try and track down that knows me in real life, they first thing they'll you is they never understood why I was so insecure. EVERYONE. MOM. DAD. ALL RELEVANT POSITIONS OF THE FAMILY, CHURCH LEADER, SOCIAL WORKERS, ETC all say the same thing now.

Don't assume I take ANY pride in typing these words, It's quite ironic that I hate myself for doing this, but I'm, atleast partially, quite confident what I'm saying is making you question things.

If that's true, GOOD! That's my goal. If at any point through that you felt good about yourself because someone with style explained the obvious but takes no pride in it, then logically what does that mean? That you used your ability to relate to another inspite of what reality and your mind is telling you.

You've been told all your life that the thing that what brings you success, which I define simply as being happy with what you have and being ok with compromising no matter how illogical it may be.

You ever realize that you parents in some innocent way traumatized you, whether that be walking in on them naked or forgiving them for what they did because you relate to them better than anyone younger than them on a genetic level besides a possible older parent.

THE POINT- The whole point is, I know you fundamentally because I am, at least at some point in time, struggling with the same thing you are right now.

I feel bad for being myself, but when I be myself everyone around me praises me for it. I feel disgusted with reality, but truly I find great comfort and humour in the situation, because no matter what, I'm ok with myself at the end of the day.

I feel obligated to type this and am now finished, because logically, the vast majority of you should relate to at least one objective fact, AND I KNOW THE VAST MAJOIRTY OF YOU FEEL ATLEAST AT FIRST THE NEED TO CORRECT ME, OR ASSUME, OR FEEL SUPERIOR FOR SOMETHING I CANT CONTROL, AND FOR SOMETHING YOU DON'T DO OR LABEL YOURSELF AS TOO. I KNOW AS LAW BECAUSE I DO IT CONSTANTLY.

At the end of it all, if you're a United States citizen, isn't it reality that you feel like you disagree with almost everyone for something out of their control, yet depending on the context and your innate way of life, you learn somewhat from your mistakes and try your hardest to implement the strategy that sounded best from someone you respect and trust, meaning even if you started shouting pejoratives at each other in public, as long as no one threatens murder or maybe wins on a technicality because of selfishness, then you're both free to go wherever you want next and, idk, DO WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT AND FEEL WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT NEXT.

PS. I feel like a moron for even trying to explain this given what I know, but please try and read and come to point where your mind and body agree with each other and you feel at peace. Wherever that FIRST happened, reread up to that point and stop. After, Simply go with the flow and understand two things 'NO MAN IS PERFECT' and "ROME WASNT BUILT IN A DAY" It takes matching reality with your feelings, and understanding everyone's trying to change and suit your needs if YOU FEEL BAD FOR UPSETING THEM EVER FOR ANY REASON.

SIGH, I feel like Casanova and if you even think you know what that means you think i'm flexing. I just can't help myself MUAHAHAHAHA. Love you all please have a nice day no matter where you be. I feel like a jedi and I didn't even know I was forced to be good from birth. Life is hard for everyone I suppose.

Whatever logic helped you, try to simplify it for those you think are fundamentally different than you, for your own happiness and peace of mind. Good NIGHT!