I woke up in love. He didn’t reply to a picture I sent and I got angry. He was just focused on something else and asking for my help but of course I go and think of the negative.

Then he’s had a horrible day and takes it out on me... then I keep calling and calling when I tell myself to let him call me. But I forget that I told myself that and i end up calling him.

Then I decide to let it go and just say goodbye for the night but then he shows up at my place because he wanted to see me. And he’s super sweet the whole time but decides to leave and I felt like he didn’t want to be around me instead of appreciating that he came over.

I argue about it, he felt bad, obviously. Angry even.

He gets home. I don’t reach him when I call him to apologize. So I go to his place and ring the bell at 11 pm. I’m surprised with how he took that.

I’m not always like this... I promise. But I’m afraid that he’ll use this against me or that I fucked up big time.