I've never had a hobby really. I did sports here and there as a kid but never stuck with anything.

Now as an adult it just seems even harder to find something that holds my interest long enough. Example: I'll start obsessing over the cuteness/prettiness of things such as anime culture. My room is covered in Sailor Moon, Dragon Ball, and Sanrio. Yet I rarely ever watch anime or any of these shows. It makes me feel like a fraud. I used to love makeup and have quite a collection but I lost the passion to be creative.

I tried getting into skateboarding years ago. Got frustrated with how much work it needed from me. Hurt myself pretty badly and kind of walked away from it. It still is an interest of mine but I'll probably never get back on the board...and will continue to watch other people excel and hate myself. HAHA! (No, I don't hate myself but definitely this trait!)

I was doing great playing Animal Crossing for maybe 6 months straight but got sick of it. I never even want to turn my Switch on to play my other games. I started reading at the beginning of the pandemic and finished a few books but haven't opened another up.

I'm just curious if other people who suffer from BPD have this issue of feeling like you don't belong but want to belong to some sort of group, hobby, etc. But when it is time to actually commit yourself - eh, I'm over it!