I'm not sure if it's the BPD, or just me in general but I'm getting worse and worse the longer I'm alive.

It's taken 10 years but I'm almost able to always explain to my SO that it's 'my head' when something is wrong.

But I want to be able to tell her more, I just...can't. Even when I used to see psychs I could never open up so they just assumed I'm fine(I'm not).

I know she won't judge me, but the things I need to tell her would change anybodies view of me, hell even my own if I didn't already know.

I guess it's not so much how to explain it, but more so how to talk in general. Fuck I don't know, I'd normally delete this without posting but that gets me no where you dumb cunt. Fuck sorry, posting...