Yesterday I woke up after a really bad dream that led me to have some flashbacks right as I had just gotten up. It put me in a really awful and sensitive mood. I felt like I had no control over my moods and it was making me see things in an unhealthy light.

My bf has a big deadline and I split on him when I was supposed to be supportive. I feel awful and I've apologised but it doesn't mean it didnt happen.

It scares me that I seen things the way I did. I was convinced that he was just trying to shut me up and ignore me when really he wasnt. I'm really worried that I've did this before and not realised. I'm worried that I'm abusive and he is scared to confront me because I'm really vulnerable.

I don't know how to process this situation and I dont want to hurt him. Hes the nicest person I've ever met and he cares about me more than anyone else ever has. I would literally do anything for this man and that includes facing some hard truths. Has anyone ever been in this position, and how did you learn to be better?