I had a pretty severe breakdown a couple of weeks ago. I can't even say it's 'over' because I feel like I'm a totally different person to who I was a few weeks ago.

A bit of background: my mental health was pretty bad throughout my teenage years but seemed to even out somewhat in my early twenties. Now though, I feel like I've been living in denial for the past 15 years, pretending to be someone I'm not. Pretending to be Neurotypical I guess.

Then about 3 weeks ago I just fell apart completely. In the midst of it I had pretty dark thoughts and feelings and seemed to lose touch with any recollection of my past self and lost the ability to imagine my future self. While overall things have improved since then, those feelings have not. I have no idea who I was, who I am now, and who I will be in future.