i saw my psychologist the other day, and he told me to start to move away from online friends and start to ground myself in more irl friends, but the problem with that is i dont have many irl friends, and i dont even have many online friends anymore after everyone cut me off, i dont really want to have friends anymore because its getting to hard to mantain them, i feel like a leech all the time i feel so empty and alone constantly and above all else i dont feel like im being a good friend.

The person i considered my best friend cut me off and it destroyed me, i cant make that sort of relationship/bond ever again because of it and i hate that, i wish that i was strong enough but above all else i just want to be able to feel safe with someone again. i just want to feel loved

EDIT: Im sorry to hear many of you all going through the same thing, but it is nice to be heard and recognised, i know that together we can all get through this, thank you for all the kind word sand support, love you all <3