He cheated on me and physically assaulted me over and over and over again yet I still love him so much. I can't remember the last time he told me he loves me. I'm resisting the urge to do really bad things its so hard. shes his type too unlike me which he made sure to remind me of while we were together. i hope she cheats on him. poor girl.

i was doing better until i saw this. i thought i was okay. it always comes back. i hate him so fucking much. i dont know what to do im still so madly in love with him and he doesnt care. he doesnt care about me at all. im nothing to him anymore. he moved on. he doesnt love me. he doesnt love me anymore i cant believe it. im so sad. i want to go see him. i know where he lives. i could. i could go today i could see him. im trying not to so im just going to stay inside. He's my love. he cant leave me like this. after everything hes done i want his comfort again. i want him to hug me. i want him to love me again. i cant do this anymore. i really cant keep doing this over and over again.

he found something better. prettier , his type, not me. he hates me. he doesnt love me. im still trying to wrap my head around that.