It’s toxic and crazy. A lot of back story. He owes me a lot of money so I can’t just walk away. We still slept with each other. He just told he wants to be with another girl. I said stuff to hurt him and make him not forgive me so I know he wouldn’t come back. I hope it does work out for him. But now I want him sooo bad even just sexually. He was my best partner. It hurts he doesn’t see attractive anymore but that was the point. I just texted him. He hasn’t answered. He always answered before. I don’t want to lose him. Idk because that’s my love language touch. I can’t image not having him. I have had him for the last three years. I guess him not wanting as a women, as a slut or toy. I am really am worthless. He can walk away after everything and at my lowest (I’m growing through stuff) when I was there for his.