So i think this would go into radical acceptance. I could be wrong, but anyways. The last little while Iv decided to cut off a bunch of family and friends cuzz I cant fit into social "norms", due to how traumatized I was from my family, which caused my depression, bpd and anxiety. My mom and step dad also got divorced 2 years ago so it destroyed the family and I finally seen my mother for who she truely was... and I got major flashbacks when she divorced my bio dad when I was 4.

This thanksgiving and christmas will be the first time Im alone. Im going to work christmas day... so I can distract myself and not think about how my family treated me.

I cut off my dad and step mom last year as well cuzz of boundaries not being followed and both of us stopped making an effort to see eachother. My whole family is a mess and tbh the less time I spend around them, the happier I am. Cuzz i dont have to remember fucked up memories when Im not around them. The only family I still respect is my half brother and my sister. Its just too bad my sister lives with my mom and my brother is spending christmas day with his gf and her family most likely. Always the outcast and still am. But i enjoy my solitude and its time for some new traditions.