Hello everyone,

Earlier this year my (M29) wife(F25) was diagnosed with BPD, PTSD, depression, and GAD. She spent 6 weeks in a hybrid inpatient/outpatient program. It has been a rollercoaster.

Before she was diagnosed, her emotions and general moods were way up and down, however, after the program she went through (I'm sorry I'm sure there's a name for it, but I'm really bad at remembering technical names of things) she seemed to have better control over her emotions.

I try to stay on top of her so that she takes her medications at the same time every day and consistently, but sometimes she and I both forget and a day might go by where she doesn't take them.

She never has been really open about how her therapy is going or what her and her psychiatrist talk about (I am completely okay with this because she does like her privacy and I'm not trying to force her to share anything she does not want to and I have made this abundantly clear).

2 weeks ago my wife had a suicide attempt which lead her to the hospital. Her psychiatrist said she wants her to do inpatient, long-term care (6 months to a year). Instead my wife opted to do the 6 week program again.

My wife claims that techniques she learns in this program don't help her take control of her emotions and feels, and that she can't seem to ground herself. Most days she starts out fine and then out of nowhere she stares off into the distance and begins to shut down. She cries almost everyday about how she doesn't want to be here anymore and that she is just so tired... Tired of feeling what she's feeling.

My main question is, what can I do? I feel completely useless because my wife is right, I do not know how she feels or what she is going through. I want to be as supportive as possible but I seem to fall short Everytime. I worry about her safety day in and day out.