i’ve been really depressed thinking that no one could ever love me as much as i do and it’s so painful. i do a lot of things out of love, i put in a lot of effort, and i give reassurance because i know i want to be treated that way too. but i feel like people who don’t have bpd are just different and it’s hard for them to understand. i’m also scared because i feel like i’m just doomed. to not have someone that can match your love is really scary and i hate feeling this way. i love so much sometimes that my chest physically hurts. do normal people not experience that?

edit: thank you all for the comments, i don’t feel so alone on this anymore. some of the comments are depressing and make me hate that i have bpd even more (it truly is a blessing and a curse), but some are very hopeful and easier to take in. it’s hard to accept the reality of it and it’s gonna take a while for me to be at peace with it. at the end of the day i think as long as they show that they do love me (especially through actions) and most importantly make me feel seen, i will be happy, but everyone has different needs and perceptions of things so i can’t say that this applies to everyone. from what i gathered, we just love differently (there’s a reason for this) and feel emotions to the extreme, but that doesn’t necessarily mean no one can love us the same amount. to be loved is to be seen, understood, and changed. let’s not lose hope!