Chances are everyone is going to see this, realize it's me that's posting it and go about their day. That's fine, so I'll just say what I need to say. I hate how it seems like I've managed to figure out a way to get everything I want in my life eventually, with enough hard work. The same can't be said for my interpersonal life. I've spent my whole life praying, rationalizing and trying to find a way to explain why EVERYONE in the world except me seems to be able to date, find a way to appeal to the partners they want, etc. I can't. And it's all because of what was done to me as a kid, how I was raised. I was so focused on pandering to my abusers that I missed the critical period for developing age appropriate, adult relationship skills. And now it's too late, and now I get to suffer and watch everyone around me fall in love, get engaged, married, move in together, etc. Meanwhile my longest relationship at 26 years old is not even 4 months.

Nobody knows how to help me, nobody knows any advice to help, and it's actually quite a scary feeling.