Heya guys. I've met this boy on reddit, who made me believe that love is possible again. I've been bruised, abused. My ex left me, alone and broken with two kids, whom I have to raise alone with terrible mental difficulties. I've made an add on reddit, that I was seeking for a partner, and I met this wonderful boy. But unfortunately, it seemed to good to be true. So I pushed him away. And, naturally he blocked me. I know I broke his heart. And honeslty I am thinking about you know, but I can't do it because of my kids. He did make me believe he understood the difficulties I am going through. I was stupid to trust him. But I needed so bad for someone to understand me. And I let him in. The pain is tremendous. I can't breathe. I took jh meds to calm down, but I am so sorry for what I did. He said he thinks I am playing games. And I am not. I feel everything. And it hurts like fucking hell. Why would I let someone in? Why do we do this? Why once we let someone in, we push them away? I hate myself.