ive been talking to this guy for about 2 months, we’ve gotten really close where it almost feels like a relationship, we see eachother everyday, one time he slept at my house 10 days in a row and I know us bpd tend to jump into stuff so fast but I cant help it

let me say ive never felt happier, more comfortable, safe with someone else. he is awesome. if I talk about my feelings he loves to listen and understand and he doesnt get angry at me like my ex did and hes honestly so perfect.

anyways, I feel myself getting extreme jealousy if I see him texting a friend, talking about a girl etc you guys can probably relate

and I right now Im splitting on him for the first time.

I feel so bad because im definitely pulling away from him because as much as I want to love and be loved, it hurts so bad and im scared of hurting myself and him and he does not deserve this at all.

I know what I have to do is tell him how I feel but to explain how I feel I need to give all this context of bpd and my childhood and what splitting it :’) im scared he will think its too much. ultimately im just really fucking scared of him leaving me and I want to tell him that but im scared.

I was wondering if anyone has any advice if youve been in a similar situation??