How do you keep going and move past it? Once again, my BPD has been played against me by a shallow and immature individual I thought was my friend. They gone as far as making me out to be dangerous and psychotic to the group of friends we shared. Everyone in the group chose to listen and believe them and no one spoke to me or asked my side of the story. Drastic measures were taken against me and I've been trying to fight to clear my name, but the few people I've been left to deal with refuse to give my evidence and help me clear my name. None of them seem to understand how this feels hurtful and unfair to me. They're maintaining the people involved are good and kind people and would never hurt someone. But they also admit the wrong things have been said and done. I lost a whole friend group, including someone I was close to and stupidly made my fp. They claim they don't hold anything against me, but they won't let me tell my side of the story to the people that need to know it was all lies. I'm a single parent. I live in a small rural isolated town. My family hate me. I struggle to make friends and keep them, well mostly I keep choosing the wrong people. I am tired of being the emotional, mental and everything for my kids as well as fight my one head alone. I'm exhausted and done and want to give in. I want a hospital bed and medication so I can't think. But it's not an option because of my kids. I don't know how to get through this one alone. I just need someone to show up and I have no one to ask.