So I can't be in social groups, I am 100% introvert and I feel solst being by my self. Problem is, I have extroverted friends and co-worker who love to socialize with me. Even with a friend who is also BPD and schizoaffective, he also has brain damage from a car accident and is autistic so his more outgoing as a damaged brain person. I can not be with him too long cause my social battery just dies quickly. I get frustrated because he wants to be out greeting people and talking to everyone like he knows them, I just wanted an hour hangout and go home to recharge but he drags me everywhere.

Being BPD I know how to mask and I use it when I am around him and at work. But I love to work physically hard, I can feel so drained from to much socializing exposure but as soon as I start to sweat hard from working ( I work in the lumber section at home Depot) I feel like I have tons of energy to burn off. I did a 6 hour shift moving 2x10x12 lumber into stacks on the rack even though I physically pushed myself all day long and still managed to come home, shower and shave, grab my cloths to wash, go get groceries, eat dinner in my car, finish washing and drying my cloths and bed sheets, get home by midnight and still not fall asleep.

Has anyone else experienced this kind of what ever this is before?