I am absolutely in pain because my favourite person is/was a grade younger than me and I'm graduating tommorrow. Its absolutely terrifying and hearbreaking and I'm in intense depression and sadness, almost to the point of not being able to speak anymore. Its so upsetting to me because I feel like I can't live without him in a way. Sure I get angry when I feel like he ignores, walks by me without noticing and I feel like an absolute burden. I don't know how to cope and I'm scared he will abandon me and we'll never see eachother again. I literally have suicidal thoughts like hanging myself and slfhrming again. I'm scared. How do I let go of this feeling of leaving my favourite person? Sorry if this sounds weird, I'm not stable with awkward ramble thoughts.