I do everything I can the way I'm told I'm supposed to. Therapy, hobbies, friends, family, distractions, staying busy... Nothing works. I want to move on with my life but I seem completely incapable of it.

I feel stuck and empty, like every bad thing that ever happened is still happening right now. It's all interconnected and I am the thread that ties all of the trauma and mistakes together. The weight of all that pain is impossible to get out from under and I feel like I'm hardly even a person at this point. I'm nothing but exposed nerves.

Do you feel that you get over heartbreak at a rate that seems appropriate for the length and intensity of the relationship compared to what people without BPD might experience? I'm not sure if this is a BPD thing or just a me thing.