TW: mentions of abuse and SA

No comfort. No safety. No one. Wtf is this world.

Friends are a rarity for me, not that I can’t make them it’s that I can’t keep them around for long. People don’t generally see any reason to want to spend time with me, more like it’s not intolerable to be around me. Family is weird. Don’t have many, estranged from a lot of them cuz they stole from us, my brother doesn’t really acknowledge my existence when we’re alone together but he has his own emotional issues. And my mom is so wildly inconsistent with me it makes me want to scream. She was always a helicopter parents until it actually mattered then she could be totally hands off. Being molested she was hands off. Being in an abusive relationship she was hands off. Any time I get stressed or overwhelmed she tells me to just stop it.

My only source of comfort in my life for the last few years was my ex. But our relationship was messy. Now I’m alone. I have no comfort. I have no one.