I’m using this as my vent space/personal diary. I do not deserve to be in a relationship. I’m a friggin mess.

I’m an awful partner. I’m incredibly attentive and focused on my partner until something goes wrong and I literally cannot focus on anything or anyone other than how miserable I am in life. I never leave my partner alone. I’m like their shadow or their dumb puppy who acts like they stop breathing when their owner leaves. I respect boundaries if the boundaries are we get to spend all our time together. I never stop talking and people don’t like that. I like to touch, like I want to be skin to skin, or casually holding hands, or hiding my face inside my partner’s shirt, or they hide in mine, or I just rub my face into them and not care about what they’re doing I just wanna touch em. My favorite part about having a partner is having someone to go out with first fun adventures, except I never want to leave my bed when I have my partner. I am an absolute awful traumatized hypersexual whore and I try to only date people who are like me. I also want to die when I get rejected by my partner so I can’t date non-pervy people. I want all time to be quality time, even silence I wanna be with my partner all the time. I get jealous easy. I try to encourage people to go out and be happy with their friends but then when they leave I feel like laying down on the ground and letting nature take me to the grave. I tend to cut my plans short to run back home with my partner which annoys people a lot.

Anyway that’s my tedtalk folks. Do not date me. I’m annoying lmao