Hi,

I am a 30M, working with a semi-startup company as one of their WFH dev/QA. To cut the long story short, I entered the Google Meet link at 9:59PM when the meeting is 10:00PM and the director for development mentioned my name on a statement…

(Let’s cover up my name as Adrian)

“And Adrian… Ohh hey Adrian…. Uhmmm” something like that. I saw his assistant, and 3 other colleagues laughing to the point that one turned off his camera.

I am a very sensitive person. I was diagnosed with BPD with narcissistic tendencies just early this year after I took some extensive tests.

I know that I was backstabbed since I am asking the director for some guidance if the both of us are on the same page, but I am surprised that 4 other people are there. I am thinking that they are thinking that I am incompetent.

I began to feel uneasy and I palpitate, even now. I immediately vented out to my fellow dev/QA about the inconsistencies of what they want to do (I tried my best to not to overshare my feelings) via chat. I felt betrayed by these people and I immediately closed all of the messages that they had with me on our team messaging.

I feel I am very sensitive about this and irrational.

Am I splitting? How do I deal with this? Can someone help me? Are my feelings valid? Am I overreacting?

I will take my Quetiapine for now.

I opted to work from home permanently because I thought the backstabbing and not-so-mental-health-friendly interactions with other people are removed, but I guess I am wrong.