God she’s the best. She’s literally perfect in every fathomable way (I’m kidding guys, I mean lowkey not but I know that’s not true like I’m self aware to know this lol). But fr I really like her. She’s a great girl, we both actually have a ton of trauma and share some some diagnoses 😭 but I respect her for prioritizing healing and growth, she’s actually a full blown therapist now and a great one at that! Actually not my first time dating a therapist so some ground rules and serious boundaries were already a big priority for us. But we just have so much in common!

I talk a lot. Like a stupid amount. Like I can see about 200 texts per day and not short texts I mean essay length texts. I am not exaggerating I talk a lot. And she’s the same way?! Yk how hard it is to be with someone who wants you to shut up all the time but no we talk a lot and I love it. We have a lot of shared interests and just a shared zest for trying new things that I adore about her and us. We never run out of things to say, things we want to do, or just enjoying the peace of being together cuz she’s literally a cuddly bitch like me and likes to sleep together and take naps or just hold onto each other. She even has published books!! I’m an unpublished author and the respect I have for her already is immense she’s just absolute fucking girlboss 😂 anywayyy. We’ve not been at this for very long we just found an organic bond with each other. Nothing felt forced with her, we are both just very comfortable with being with each other.

I do still have a lot of walls up. I was deeply in love with the last person I was with, and no matter what I don’t like letting someone in to get attached to them so quickly. I do have some level of control. But my fear is if/when those walls come down I will fall into old habits and mess things up turning her into a full blown fp when I know there is still room to stop it. Our relationship is good but not perfect. We aren’t even really committed to each other and I’m unbothered by that. It’s mostly on her end she doesn’t desire anything too serious and I was on the same boat. We are still at liberty to connect with others without shame or judgment. We just haven’t yet.

A bit of a weird middle ground area but I am still very happy. I just don’t want to fuck this up. I want to have healthy normal relationships!