Here’s me once again, on this subreddit. Can’t help but just feel so annoying.

I’m (26M) on my way home from a meetup, and I felt mostly excluded from the group I was in. I didn’t get much attention, getting talked over…and at the end, I walked home…alone.

I feel like I’m just such an attention whore, wanting people to actually express interest in me and my existence. But often seems like everywhere I go, nobody gives a flying crap about me.

I guess it’s because I come off as reserved, but I still try really hard to put myself into conversation, but every time I do…it’s not really quality attention that I get, if that makes sense. Even when I’m in group conversation and I lean my head and body forward, eye contact and whatnot isn’t focused on me.

I just feel hurt. I wish people actually wanted me. I want to be loved and cared about. I want to be ‘rescued’ and have my hand taken away with love…but it pretty much never happens. It hurts so damn much, and it’s the story of my life. I just wish I didn’t have to live through this miserable existence.