i’ve secretly been in love w my bestfriend for like 3 years now, we’ve known each other for 4, we’re extremely close. hes had girls that come up to him calling him attractive and in the past he’s ignored them but now he’s entertaining them. today a girl called him attractive and asked for his instagram, he gave it to her and now i can’t stop stressing and crying. i’m acting mean and cold towards him because i don’t know how to act okay with him. i don’t know how to be a good friend and be happy for him when i’m completely broken and angry that i’m not enough for him, that he can’t see the person who loves and appreciates every single part of him right in front of him. i know he’s gonna start talking to her and in the past when he was talking to a girl i acted so angry w him and subconsciously got mad at him for doing things like hanging out w her instead of me and it almost ended our relationship and it took so long to rebuild after he stopped talking to her, and i don’t think i can go through that again. obviously with my bpd it just heightens these emotions SO much more and i’m trying to fight the urge to sh. i know he’s gonna tell me stuff ab her and it’s gonna break my heart every single time, any advice on how to handle this, i love and care for him so insanely much but it hurts so much to even talk to him when he’s interested in someone else.