To begin- I have BPD and OCD, and they overlap frequently. My OCD can cause delusions and (obviously) obsessive behaviors, but the emotional responses to avoiding the compulsions and behaviors is very severe and follows the typical BPD Responses.

I was diagnosed with both at 14 (with BPD, where I live, it’s a 2 year criteria of symptoms I presented with at 12 to become diagnosed) so I’ve struggled with this for ages.

I used to have problems where I would pace endlessly and repeat sentences over and over again. Sometimes I would feel invincible, and needed to be hospitalized at some points because of that delusions.

Currently, for the past 3 days, I have been obsessed with my house. I didn’t even notice it was bad, but I realized I hadn’t eaten in almost two days. I never had a “cleaning” ocd obsession, only slight anxiety surrounding it. However, I haven’t been able to stop cleaning. Everything. To the point where I’m sleeping 3-4 hours per night, unable to stop moving. Re-organizing my room, house, everything. I can’t respond to texts, I just can’t stop.

I have an appointment with my therapist in two days, but I need to know if this happens with BPD or not? It would be helpful to know where to channel my anxiety, that’s not cleaning (I’ve had to make messes just to clean them).

If this is BPD related- what would you call it? I know “mania” isn’t the correct term, and is specifically related to bipolar disorder. But I’m not sure what else it could be? Has anyone else had this, and if so, how did you stop? I just can’t stop.