I’m stupid and obsessive - comes with the territory. I met my ex boyfriend last year on my birthday and he was perfect at the start - literally my romance fairytale in real life. Even thought it was fate cuz we met on my birthday after I had the worst year ever.

After a while he ended up dating someone else (poly, not cheating). I thought it would be okay because of all the promises he made me but he just forgot about me

I’d have to beg him for attention over her and 9 times out of 10 he wouldn’t even change or try to make me feel loved or important at all

I sat there simping for him hoping I’d get back who I met at the start - it never got me anywhere but more hurt. He couldn’t even register I was living my entire life just for him out of hopes that he would remember what we had.

So I ended up leaving… idk what to do, I hurt so fucking bad. I just want someone like him to make me feel like the only girl in the world again.

I know I’ll never get him back, and I know I’ll never have what we had at the start. Idk how to move on or ever think I’ll find anything comparable

So I just don’t know how to get over it. What we had at the start was the one thing I’ve wanted in life

I can sit here and cry until it doesn’t hurt anymore but it hurts so bad I’ve done some stupid shit to my arms and thighs (you can assume). Idk what to do. I just feel stuck.

(Also first breakup, I feel okay right now but I know in an hour I’m gonna be writhing on the floor wanting to rip my hair out. I love BPD)