I'm 27 female and was diagnosed with bpd maybe 2 years ago. I am going to therapy and taking medication too.

I've been struggling with self identity since I can remember, but it got worse throughout the years. Therapy triggered my whole being lately and I know it'll get better eventually so I'm hanging in there.

My main struggle is accepting my gender. I always thought I was a boy since childhood. Always climbed trees, never wore skirts, played in the mud etc. Family always told me off to act more like a girl. There was a point in my life around 20 when I thought I was trans (ftm), but I don't think I am anymore (?). We've been working on that in therapy and my therapist is really accepting and helpful in this area and thinks I'm more a woman, just more androgynous.

I've had my body and personal space invaded throughout the years. (Not raped.) Also saw my bio father raping my mother multiple times in my childhood. Maybe these incidents also triggered my acceptance of my womanhood.

I don't know if this is the right subreddit to post this.. Can you please help? I'm on the point of crying and breaking down about it almost daily. I really want to accept my body and womanhood. I want to feel comfortable with being a woman.

(English isn't my first language so please be kind.)