I’m (26M) just so tired of it all. I wish I was wanted. I wish I was seen. I wish I was heard. I wish I was loved and cared about. I’m so sick of putting so much effort into finding people that want to care about me, only to get…crumbs back.

It’s making me lose my mind. Why am I such a repellent? What did I do to deserve all this? Am I this fundamentally flawed and broken?

Especially with sexuality as well. I’m a kissless virgin, and looking at kink forums too much just makes me so jealous and makes me want to cry. It’s me looking at things I wish to have, only for reality to set in and know I cant have that. It’s a form of self harm for me to look at that stuff so much… but I sometimes can’t help but look at it.

I’m sorry, I just wanted to vent. Please don’t judge me so negatively, I’m really trying to do my best…