I know I have to love myself before someone comes around to love me...

But then I feel like I'll never find love if I never love myself the way I need to.

I've always believed I've had social difficulties.

Felt hints of aspergers but never got diagnosed which makes me believe that finding love could be harder than I ever imagined.

I believe in genuine honesty, I'm very very niave (in terms of taking sarcasm seriously, others and myself at face value) I have a strong moral compass that I feel as though everyone else should abide by, adhere to certain beliefs far too strongly, operate on a strict schedule and there's NO DEVIATING. Anorexia and obsessive hobbies are definitely up there with suspiciously autistic

There are just a lot of things (more than I've mentioned) that just don't scream BPD to me.

So all that combined, I'm feeling very unlucky in the long term love department. I'm so isolated, alone and sad. Mood is up and down and I desperately need specialized therapy. I'm so low down.