Once again I'm here in this void of despair. I've driven away my FP of 4 years with my disordered emotions and this time it's done.

He said he doesn't love me anymore and that he needs space. Don't know where to go from here.

I don't know if the feeling of approaching a breakup and not being able to do anything is worse than the breakup itself.

I've felt like this many times before and yet it doesn't get easier. I haven't eaten in 2 days, haven't slept in 36 hours, my mind is spiraling into despair. How can I live without him? Do I even want to?

I'm honestly in so much pain and I'm so exhausted. I've tried various DBT and mindfulness techniques to try and calm down but none work. My heart physically aches. There's like a pit of empty darkness that's dragging all my thoughts into it and I'm feeling more and more hopeless.

I could really use some advice on how to self soothe or just survive this.