Idk what to put tbh I have Ben studying it for a bit over a year now and show almost all sighs other then I don't get angry overly easily (at least not like super angery ) other then that I show every single sigh for it . I wanna get tested and dignosed but I already have 10 (I think tbh I keep losing count ) different disorders/problems and idk tbh I don't wanna add another plus I don't want the stigma of BPD as well as fear it effect my futcher with kids as I wanna adopt . Tho I suck at making freinds cuz I often can't hold stable friendships because my problem is I'm ether super super clingy or super super shy and acword on top of often can't understand conmuicateing. (Clearly I'm very honest 😂) .I don't want to self dignoses BPD tbh cuz I'm not a huge fan of self dignoseing for myself so I just norm say I don't have it but am pritty sure I have it (tho like super sure ) .