28f in a relationship with 32m since April. It's serious, we live with our parents and looking for a first appartement together. We are usually together but sometimes i have to go back with my family (300km) and we do long distance. My fear of abandonement is strong. His love langage is touch. I'm off med since July and my mood is rollercoaster. But when im sad i try to explaint to him, he seems to unterdand but dont dont do much about it exept apologies and changing but it's for some time and then he act the same

Plus without the med I take forever to sleep. Especially if im sad or not loved. And since a couple week when i talk about some things that he do that make me feel unloved, he just go to sleep.I retook my sleepills since.

Is the bdp talking when il wanna breakup because (thinking that) when i open my heart he just skip the convo, sleep etc etc

Thankyu sorry for english.