Can I hear from people who like their job what they do for a living, what the pros and cons are?

I am currently on short term disability leave from a retail job and I just don’t think I can go back. I’m quite certain the other employees don’t like me, that management is looking to get me fired, that regional management is, too. I felt like I was being deliberately given conflicting instructions from different levels of management and that they were trying to sabotage me. I know that sounds paranoid, but I have solid things I can point to on this.

I have no idea what a job within my “window of tolerance” would be. Too slow and sedentary and isolated and I get so bored it’s physically painful and I feel like I want to take an ice pick to my brain. Too fast and socially intensive and noisy and crowded and I have a meltdown or just completely shut down. But I have to work. My psychiatrist won’t sign off on me being unable to work long term and it’s very hard to get long term or permanent disability for mental health and the payout isn’t enough for me to live off of, realistically. And I’d have to live somewhere I wouldn’t feel safe. And I would be forced onto state insurance, which my care providers don’t accept. And who knows if the care providers I would line up would be on board with continuing to vouch for me not being able to work?