I don't know how being alive works anymore, always looking for what i like who i am who i wanna be. Always seeking for an answer that's not coming.

I had a goal, studied 6 years for becoming a psychiatrist (with a hella disastrous university career), i'm still studying but i don't know why. i don't know if i really like it, event don't know how did i end up there, i just found myself in med school, 6 years later, near to graduation knowing nothing about what i studied and why and how.

can't remember anything related to this in the past years i only remember growing up saying i wanted to become a psychiatrist, reading a lot of books and studies about it but why? how?

I just feel like throwing it all away but i'm scared because i can't find anything i like (or ever liked) or anything else i could do for a living (i also have social anxiety).

Not even sure why i'm suddenly thinking about this but maybe is 'cause for the first time in my life i see sort of a future (maybe therapy is working but also brings out things i never thought about??)

Is there anyone else experiencing something similar? how do you deal with it?