Does anyone else here become extremely anxious whenever their S/O goes out? My boyfriend went out today with his colleagues to watch an event. He didn't finish the event and went out with our female friend and her friend (someone i dont know) and i cant help but feel that our female friend is setting up her friend to my boyfriend while im not there. I feel like they're conspiring so that my bf can cheat on me and eventually leave me.
Aside from that, whenever he goes out with our friends without me (who are also my friends), I cant also help but feel like he's having more fun with them more than he does whenever he's with me. It makes me feel like he'll eventually leave me bc of our friends. Or that they're conspiring again to cheat on me and help him find someone better.
I know that this is just the BPD in me speaking rn. But sometimes my thoughts get out of control and im tired of reaching out to other people to tell them how i feel bc they will never understand how it feels like living with this illness.