That’s it. I want to disappear. I don’t want to meet anyone more than once. It’s stressful. I feel like I have to act a certain way when I meet someone the second time. As if they will see through me. That I am empty inside, I have nothing of value or nothing to like. I am a fraud. Maybe I am a fraud, a fake. I hate everyone. I don’t want anyone to know me or talk to me/about me. Or I want my childhood back. I want my parents not to fight. My mom not to drink. My parents to care about me. If that’s not possible then I don’t want to anything. I want to simply disappear and never be found.

Also I want something really bad to happen to all my friends who have been mean to me. I want them to suffer. I want them to go through the worst pain imaginable.