Long story short, we've been together for two years now. However, I have a terrible past of exes who all cheated on me and sometimes I'm still suspicious even with no reason. He's my longest relationship and he tolerates that I go crazy sometimes. The problem is, I managed to get accepted into university in Taiwan for a semester exchange, and he's back home in Europe.

But now it's hard, since we're 6 hours apart, I wake up and have to wait 6 hours or more to text him or anyone else back home. I'm very lonely lol

Obviously he's my FP. Ever since I'm here I've been spiraling emotionally and becoming obsessive over him because I can't physically see him and because of my past. I know it pisses him off and I can get crazy, but how do I stop it??? I tried going on walks, watching movies or youtube, playing games, focusing on school. Nothing works. I know it's me who made my life harder but damn, how do I cope??? Please help, I need advice how to calm down.