I live with 2 roommates and my boyfriend. Today, I’m at work, and my roommates, boyfriend, and one of our other friends are all hanging at our apartment without me. We have lived in our apartment since January and I’m not kidding every single time they hang out it’s when I’m at work. I don’t think it’s intentional because they always make plans super last minute, but it hurts that they don’t seem to give a shit that I haven’t hung out with them in 6 plus months. They’re never like “we need to make plans with (my name) we haven’t hung out with her in a while” and it hurts being so forgotten, or just unwanted, whatever the reason is. I don’t think my roommates like me. They never speak to me but talk to my bf a ton everyday, right in front of me. I’ve never had many friends, I always thought it was just because I’m quiet but like I live with these people and they still treat me like I’m not there. I feel like a reject. Like I’m defective or there’s just something about me that makes people want to stay away. I’m sitting at work crying wishing I wasn’t such a gross monster so people would like me. I don’t know what to do or how to fix whatever is wrong with me I’m scared I’ll be lonely forever.