Hi,

In a few days it's my birthday and two days before that it's my gf friend's birthday. Every year her friend throws a party a day or two after my birthday, but this year my gf told me that her friend decided to host the party the same day of my birthday. This pissed me off as it seemed intentional and not giving a shit. I told my gf if she could ask her friend to move the date one day as it would be weird going to somebody else birthday on my own.

She showed me the text and the way she asked her pissed me even more as I felt she wasn't on my side.

I got into a fight with my gf and now I'm in my bed depressed at 5pm. It's a national holiday and instead of going for a run or doing something fun I'm just laying with emptiness.

I'm posting on a bpd forum when I'm not even diagnosed but maybe someone here can relate to the way I feel.