i (f23) and my boyfriend (m26) were together for 2.5 years and everything seemed fine. since he almost never triggered my bpd symptoms i made the fatal mistake to leave therapy and my meds as i thought i was actually getting better at regulating my emotions. we were talking about getting married and our relationship was literally the best relationship ive ever had. just in 3 days, he said that he doesnt want to do any relationships and said he wants to meet new people. he is now flirting with a girl he met at the day we broke up. i cant cope. i dont know what to do. all i can do is smoke weed and cry. i cant get back to therapy as i dont have the money and therapy is really expensive and i dont know any healthy coping mechanisms. what can i do to get better? he was my favorite person and my literal best friend. i just dont know how he can change that sudden and i am in shock. its been 4 days and i literally can not cope im so sad