i know it probably sounds dumb, but he went to uni a few weeks ago and has been so busy that we've hardly been talking. usually when i get upset over being "ignored" i go silent, but i actually talked things out with him and i've genuinely came to terms with him not being able to talk all the time - and that it'ss completely fine.

he reassured me that i have nothing to worry about and that he still cares for and loves me and i'm seriously at peace with it which is such a weird feeling. i've never really felt this way before so it's strange, but now i'm able to realise that he has moved to a different city, has more friends, and has a lot of work to be doing so he won't always be available and that's FINE. he isn't just abandoning me for no reason. i can reassure myself and stop myself from panicking and if i need it, he will reassure me too. i've never had that before either, so it's a new and lovely thing to experience

again, it probably sounds silly, but this is a huge thing for me and i'm so happy :) i just need to tell people lol