To make a long story short, I've (20F) been dealing with suicidal ideation. My partner recently left me, i had a falling out with my best friend a while back and I got into an argument with my dad a few nights ago over going to therapy.

Needless to say a girl is going through it right now, I've tried to hurt myself a few times these past few weeks. everyday i feel like i'm fighting to keep going, its just a hard ass time for me right now feeling abandoned and unloved and it always deeply triggers my bpd when I feel those things.

I'm currently very busy with college right now, but i was thinking during the reading week I have off soon from school i could take that time to admit myself and focus on nothing but solely my suicidal thoughts and recover in a space that disconnects me from the outside world.

What was your experience if you have had any? how long did you stay? what should i prepare myself for before going in? any advice or comments would mean very much to me, thank you!

UPDATE: first off,thank you for the comments....i don't post very often but i felt really pushed to talk about how i've been feeling on this forum and your comments have been very reassuring, informative, and have honestly made my entire evening:")

For some extra background i live in Canada in case anyone was curious, so i have "free" but very limited resources. I have already started therapy:) but because it was my first session earlier today with a new therapist it's gonna take us a while to get on the ball. I hope that in two weeks my suicidal thoughts have reduced, but if not i will take the chance of admitting during my week off and prioritizing my will to live.

I'll keep checking for more comments, and will try to update this forum in a month to let you guys know how my experience went and how i'm doing. Thank you to anyone who took the time to comment, it really means to me at a time like this. stay safe <3