So basically today I was really happy coming back home from class that I felt like happy crying. I talked to my parents about my day and they didn’t really give me the energy I was expecting and I guess that was the first trigger? I went to my room and tried to write out my feelings but whenever I started to feel like crying my whole body would do like a reset and I wouldn’t really feel any particular way about the situation. Then I would be sad again, numb again and so on so forth, but these mood changes would happen within seconds. I’ve had this happen fairly often and the only emotion my brain seems to block out like this (that I have noticed) is sadness. Like sure, I’ll shed a few tears, but never full on cry. It’s so weird and the constant shift makes me feel…physically weird? Like I feel crawling out of my skin and even if I take deep breaths, it’s like there’s never enough oxygen. I’m trying to write this as fast as I can because once I forget about it for a while, it’s like I forget how helpless and insane it makes me feel until it happens again. I can never really describe times that it happened because I forget them but I know I feel this way often. Please, any advice, comment or thought is deeply appreciated. I just want to know I’m not alone with this…