I live in a very stressful environment that I can’t get out of at the moment. Today I thought I might end up homeless, but it went so much deeper than I thought it would.

I know I’ve done this before but this is the first time I’ve ever pulled myself out of it. Basically, I had an argument with someone I live with last night. I went to bed still on a high from it but woke up in a panic because of the argument, which had to do with a behavioral pattern I’ve been exhibiting. I took their side, amplified it to anger and turned it into a situation where I was getting kicked out. But it was all in my head.

I did my daily tasks and then sat down and started to pack my things. I got overwhelmed and went outside to sit in the grass but just ended up laying down on the cement stairs because I didn’t have the energy to move. I felt like my life was totally over. It wasn’t until they messaged me and was like “hey we need to talk about this” that something clicked in my head and I realized that I might be overthinking things. I was still on edge for a bit but once I realized the hostility had passed I was pretty much fine.

I spent all morning crying, screaming, packing my things, dragging myself around when I couldn’t do any of that anymore, just to realize it was a completely made up issue based on a tiny problem I’ve been having. Does anybody else do this? How do you cope?