So i just moved to a new city and I have a lot of acquaintances here. I know in reality these people like me but I’m having a really hard time reaching out to hang out due to my social anxiety and serious fear of rejection. I’ve had a pretty rough time socially growing up and even as an adult the bullying and exclusion i experienced messes with my head.

I have a group of close friends who I don’t get to see to often but ive basically avoided putting myself out there platonically and romantically for years partially due to healing but also due to trauma, fear of rejection and shame about my BPD. I’m so sensitive that if I asked someone to hang out and they said no I would probably not speak to them again or i would have a breakdown. Its so stupid but the fear of judgement and rejection is controlling the social aspects of my life :(

Just wondering if anyone has any tips on how to get over this or if anyone relates?