My SO treats me having bpd like it's this super sensitive thing and that he can't express how he feels ever because he's afraid it will trigger me.

I'm so fucking tired of it being this way. I try to get him to open up because he is so grumpy all the time, but it always goes back to "I can't make you happy" or "you never listen to what I say, you only listen when other people say it"

I have no idea what to do cos it just makes me shut down most of the time.

I want him to know me having SI or shutting down has nothing to do with him, and I tell him all the time he is not the issue but he ends up being the issue when this happens!!

Help. I don't want to just go to bed cos I can't deal with how I'm feeling