I’ve literally treated my husband so badly but he’s the most supportive, loving person I’ve ever met. No matter what I throw at him he has stood by me even at my lowest. Why do we hurt those we love more than anything ? During my splitting episodes I’ve been abusive, manipulative and vile towards him and he did nothing wrong except be completely honest and I literally just blow up and twist everything he says. He deserves so much better than me, but I love him more than I’ve ever loved anyone. How can I get a better control on these episodes because I’ve hurt him enough and I cannot lose the only person to ever truly love me as I am.